![]() In the evening my aunt started to sit with her and i went to bed and around 11 pm we changed so I sat down beside my mother´s bed. Though my mother was totally awake and alert. When it was around 4 pm she started to breath quite fast, this continued and in the evening it has gotten a little worse. My brother got hopeful and went home to his place during that day. They agreed to try, I wish they wouldn´t have done that. I know this sounds so absurd, I do not know how we could insist on this, but we were in such denial. ![]() The last day we had talked to the staff and begged them to try and give her liquids again because we felt they were giving up on her too easy. She was now bedbound but looked like she used to, only I noticed that her breathing sounded strange from time to time. anyway, I went there, I live some 6 hours away by car, and I then stayed with her for 4 days. I know it sounds strange, but we had been through so many crises with her illness, that we just felt numb and chocked. Having had a sick mother for 25 years( her first stroke happened when I was 16) I could not accept that suddenly she was going to die. They called me one day to tell me that her pneumonia has gotten worse and the antibiotics didn´t help and this was it, there was nothing more they could do. My mother had been paralysed from a stroke and was living in a nursing home for 15 years. I don´t know how I will ever be able to forgive myself. ![]() Hi everyone, It´s been 9 years since my mom passed away, and I have had very difficult times with a lot of guilt over the way she died.
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